I am not manic-depressive though I think I'm acting like it right now. Yesterday I was very excited and today feeling very depressed and downtrodden. On the verge of tears all day.

The sun was bright in the sky and warm on my skin. This is not natural in the middle of February in Oregon, it's usually rainy cold and miserable. So even though I enjoyed this luxury I new it was caused by the green house gases that are making the news again.

Also while I while away hours doing what it is I do, I've been oblivious to what's really going on in our world. Blissful ignorance. I'd like to go back there now thank you. But thanks to Gar, yes you Gar, my eyes have opened my heart is heavy and I feel helpless. (of course these aren't Gar's fault, he just reports the facts) Why are cold hard facts always a doomsday message?

Last but not least, my stepdaughter(from my first marriage) her husband was just diagnosed with stomach cancer. I just can't understand it. This is their third bout with this damn disease. Heather had hodgkins, David had testicular cancer when Heather was expecting twins. Now the twins are eight and now they must face yet again another onslaught of a terroist attack. That's what it is isn't it? Terrorist attack, an invader invading your borders. Taking over killing millions of healthy cells replacing them with diseased damaged and deranged cells? This war is a costly one. But at least everyone's sure who the enemy is.  ¶ 2/19/2005 09:17:00 PM